no.11

我没有怪你的意思，就是觉得一切都很没劲 。连我费尽心思对你好的那些瞬间都显得特别没劲，那些掏心窝子的话，我一句也不想说了，对你的那些好，都烂在时间里吧。

I don't blame you. I just feel that everything is boring. Even those moments when I tried my best to treat you seemed particularly boring. I didn't want to say a word about those heartfelt words. Those good things to you are rotten in time.

傻瓜，你只是看起来很快乐，那些漆黑的夜晚，那些不敢哭出声的日子，眼泪在眼眶打转的感觉，只有你自己知道，他并不会知道并且怜悯你。

Fool, you just look happy. Those dark nights, those days when you dare not cry, the feeling of tears in your eyes, only you know, he won't know and pity you.

我还幻想着某一天在深夜在清晨或在午后，你会给我发一条很长的信息，短一点也没关系，告诉我这些日子里，你从没忘记过我，可是我发现我错了。

I also fantasize that one day, late at night, in the morning or in the afternoon, you will send me a long message. It doesn't matter if it's short. Tell me that these days, you never forget me, but I find I'm wrong.

还记得那件事吗？女孩问妈妈：妈妈，为什么台上的新娘好像不开心的样子。妈妈回答：看到对面那个红着眼的男生没，估计那才是她想嫁的人吧。

Remember that? The girl asked her mother: Mom, why does the bride on the stage seem unhappy. Mother replied: did you see the red eyed boy across the street? I guess that's the one she wants to marry.

知道什么叫失望吗，就是以前看过去在眼里冒光的东西，突然烧成灰烬，你把自己所有的骄傲踩在脚底，承认自己眼瞎。

Do you know what disappointment is? It's something that glows in your eyes before, and suddenly burns to ashes. You step on all your pride and admit that you are blind.