2021.8.12

像失望和委屈这种东西没必要解释太多，越解释越乱 ，就是突然眼眶一红喉咙一紧 ，眼泪说了就来 ，没有任何理由

There is no need to explain too much about such things as disappointment and grievance. The more you explain, the more chaotic it becomes. Suddenly, your eyes become red and your throat becomes tight

你不愿意看到别人丧气，总想让身边的人开心，最后却发现除了你自己大家都挺开心的

You hate to see other people down. You always want to make everyone around you happy, only to find that everyone is happy except you

开朗是装的，懂事是装的，跟谁都合得来都是装的，自信是装的，只有我自己知道，自卑是真的，难过也是真的。

Cheerful is installed, sensible is installed, and who are compatible with all is installed, confidence is installed, only I know, inferiority is true, sad is true.

面对现实应该不会有人开心

No one should be happy about facing reality

其实我也不爱独处，我爱热闹，但是没朋友，逼着自己一个做了本可以两个人做的事情

In fact, I do not love to be alone, I love lively, but no friends, forced himself to do a thing that can be done by two people

提起你的时候，我的心里满满的都是遗憾，梦见你的时候，我的眼里满满都是泪水，这辈子我们真的就这样错过了

Mention of you, my heart is full of regret, dream of you, my eyes are full of tears, this life we really missed

我以后话少一点，不会什么都跟你说了，你不要烦，我会变乖，我会变懂事，不会再要安全感了

I will talk less later, not what to say to you, you do not bother, I will become good, I will become sensible, will not want a sense of security