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39、把安全感寄托在别人身上难免患得患失，那种失望真的是一点一点累积下来的。有时候的热情就像泼在冰上的水，一不小心融了冰也凉了自己。

it's hard to avoid worrying about gain and loss if you trust your security in others. that disappointment really accumulates little by little. sometimes enthusiasm is like water splashed on the ice. if you melt the ice accidentally, you will cool yourself.

40、时间真的是这个世界上最好的跨度，让惨痛变得苍白，让执着的人选择离开，然后经历沧桑人来人往，你会明白，万般皆是命，半点不由人。

time is really the best span in the world, making the pain pale, letting the persistent people choose to leave, and then experiencing the vicissitudes of life, you will understand that everything is life, not by people at all.

41、也许是我辜负了太多的爱，所以我得不到她的爱。在所有烂醉如泥的夜里，我最思念还是你。明明无比想要拥抱你，却不得不强迫自己背过身去。

maybe i failed too much love, so i didn't get her love. in all the drunken nights, i miss you the most. i want to hug you, but i have to force myself to turn my back.

42、所有人都在说我好的时候我会告诉自己，你没有他们说的那么好，当所有人都在说我不好的时候，我也会告诉自己，你没有他们说的那么不好。

when everyone says i am good, i will tell myself that you are not as good as they say. when everyone says i am not good, i will tell myself that you are not as bad as they say.

43、感情的湖即便偶然在渐涟漪，再也不会改变我想要走的路，也不会回到以前那样的路口，那是无法触及的创伤，走时，我会祝你幸福，我该走了。

even if the lake of feelings is rippling by chance, it will never change the way i want to go, nor will it return to the intersection like before, which is an untouchable wound. when i go, i will wish you happiness and i should go.

44、好像对谁都没有感情了，可以喜欢，也可以突然就不喜欢了，说不出矫情的话，深夜里哭不出来，后来你跟我说这是长大，可这一点也不酷。

it seems that i have no feelings for anyone. i can like it or i can suddenly dislike it. i can't say anything pretentious. i can't cry in the middle of the night. later, you told me that it was growing up, but it's not cool at all.