三十二

其实哪有什么离别，不过就是在那初夏静穆，静走，不再回头

In fact, there is no parting, but it is quiet in the early summer, walking quietly and never looking back.

如果你听到我的哽咽，麻烦你捂住耳朵，替我戴上帽子，让我一直骄傲，一直温柔，一直善良

If you hear my sob, please cover your ears and put on your hat for me, so that I will always be proud, gentle and kind.

只是你自以为身处暗无天日调沼泽，其实你在一汪水溏之中，抬头就能看见光明

It's just that you think you are in a dark swamp. In fact, you can see the light when you look up in a pool of water.

那时满心欢喜，以为你就是结局。后来月亮失了约，太阳也落了山

At that time, I was filled with joy and thought that you were the ending. Later, the moon lost its promise and the sun set.

我也想和别人一样肆无忌惮的笑，肆无忌惮的玩雪，肆无忌惮地放飞自己

I also want to laugh unscrupulously like others, play with snow unscrupulously, and let myself fly unscrupulously.

有时刻意的去维护一些关系，随后立即觉得此事索然无味，我无所图， 没有人值得我劳神费力

Sometimes I deliberately maintain some relationships, and then I immediately feel that this matter is boring. I have no idea, and no one is worth my pains and pains.

一个人具有不属于他那年龄段的神韵 ，那就具有他那年龄段所有的不幸

If a person has a charm that does not belong to his age, he has all the misfortunes of his age.

因为从心底里害怕自己不值得被爱，我们独来独往。然而，就是因为独来独往，才让我们以为自己不值得被爱

Because we are afraid from the bottom of our hearts that we are unworthy of being loved, we are alone. However, it is alone that makes us think that we are not worthy of being loved.

你遇到的每一个人 每一件事都是有愿意的，他们总能教会你一些事

Everyone you meet is willing to do everything. They can always teach you something.

你不必让所有人都喜欢你，你不必迎合所有人，因为靠迎合的关系本身就不长久

You don't have to make everyone like you, you don't have to cater to everyone, because the relationship of catering itself doesn't last long.

人生往往是这样，你以为的希望，其实是让你陷得更深的绝望;而你认为无尽的绝望，在一拐角却满眼希望

Life is often like this. The hope you think is actually the despair that makes you fall deeper; And you think endless despair is full of hope at a corner.

我明明很善良，做什么事都为别人考虑，宁愿自己吃亏，也不亏着别人，可是世界从未善待我……

I am very kind. I think of others in everything. I would rather lose myself than others, but the world has never been kind to me ...

如果曾经陪伴你的人半路离开了，即便不舍，也要心存感激，然后挥手告别。人潮汹涌，感谢遇见

If the person who once accompanied you left halfway, even if you don't give up, you should be grateful and wave goodbye. Crowd of people, thank you for meeting.

不期待成为谁的白月光，也不想成为谁的朱砂痣，白月光爱而不得，朱砂痣得而不惜

Bai Yueguang, who doesn't expect to be, and Zhu Shazhi, who doesn't want to be, can't be loved by Bai Yueguang, and won't hesitate by Zhu Shazhi.

我见了星河，有了理想，可我回头望了望人间，看到了你，于是尘世万物皆被我遗忘，独你在中央

I saw the Milky Way and had an ideal, but I looked back at the world and saw you, so everything on earth was forgotten by me, and you were the only one in the center.

我们都是都市行尸，当带魂游走时，就变成诗人，当灵魂掏空，不过走肉

We are all city walkers. When we walk with our souls, we become poets. When our souls are hollowed out, we just walk the flesh.

我有时候会想，我们执着于一段关系的意义到底是什么呢，就算一些人能回来，感觉也不可能回去了，其实自己也是回不去的

I sometimes think, what is the significance of our clinging to a relationship? Even if some people can come back, they feel that they can't go back, but in fact they can't go back either.

我们的孤独就像天空中那漂浮的城市，仿佛一个秘密，却无从诉说

Our loneliness is like a floating city in the sky, like a secret, but we can't tell it.

要么让我当一个芸芸众生，苟且过一辈子，要么让我功成名就，哪怕摔倒摔死都不怕

Either let me be a sentient being and live my whole life, or let me succeed, even if I fall and die.

心里总觉得没事情做，其实事情多得很，只是不逼到时候，不肯下手而已

In my heart, I always feel that I have nothing to do. In fact, there are a lot of things, but I just don't want to do it when the time comes.

新的一年，过去的就翻篇，好好爱自己，别否定自己，你特别好，特别温柔，特别值得

In the new year, turn over the past, love yourself well, don't deny yourself, you are very kind, very gentle, and especially worth it.

孤独，可能是人潮汹涌时左右两边互相拥抱 、欢呼，而你却可以直接穿过

Loneliness may be when people are crowded and the left and right sides hug and cheer each other, but you can go through it directly.

这是一个让人眼花缭乱的世界，所以短暂又不诚恳的喜欢没必要表达

This is a dazzling world, so there is no need to express short and insincere love.

低谷期出现的每一个人都是救赎，但每一个救赎就是下一个深渊，你被什么打动，什么就是你的命

Everyone in the trough is redemption, but every redemption is the next abyss. What moves you is your life.

你永远理解不了一个明明当时心情很压抑很想哭 却转身就对别人微笑的人心里有多难过

You can never understand how sad it is for a person who turns to smile at others when he is depressed and wants to cry.

我为自己犯下的错买单了，这辈子所到之处，皆是命数，我不恨任何人，但我永远原谅不了自己

I paid for my mistakes. Everywhere I went in my life, I meant my life. I don't hate anyone, but I can never forgive myself.

沉默不是没有情绪，而是没有再说的意义，比起诉说自己的委屈和不甘，沉默最好

Silence is not without emotion, but without meaning. Silence is better than telling one's grievances and unwillingness.

这里的一切都有始有终，却能容纳所有不期而遇和久别重逢，世界灿烂盛大，欢迎回家

Everything here has its beginning and end, but it can accommodate all unexpected encounters and long-lost reunions. The world is splendid. Welcome home.

刑车开往刑场，中途是否抛锚，是否遇上红灯，已不再重要，结局已定，过程无意

It doesn't matter whether the punishment car breaks down or meets a red light when it goes to the execution ground. The ending is fixed and the process is unintentional.

小时候总盼着明天能有新的所得，现在才发现，不失去些什么，就已经够难了

When I was a child, I always looked forward to new income tomorrow, but now I realize that it is hard enough not to lose anything.

当你被生活压得喘不过气的时候，别忘记给自己点掌声，路还长别失望

When you are overwhelmed by life, don't forget to give yourself applause. There is still a long way to go.

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