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You are the new spring before I met you, my constant ancient winter.

你是 春的新意在遇见你之前，我那 恒古不变的冬季。

Even if I sit on the plane to Harbin, to Harbin airport, there will be a banner to tell me: Harbin city welcome you.

I will walk on the road, looking at the familiar and unfamiliar street, strange and not strange buildings miss the past. Then I went back to my hotel at night and found that Harbin didn't welcome me.

It welcomes everyone, but I am a friend.

哪怕我坐上飞往哈尔滨的飞机，到了哈尔滨机场，会有横幅告诉我：哈尔滨市欢迎您。

我会走在路上，看着熟悉又不熟悉的街，陌生又不陌生的楼房怀念过去。然后在晚上回到酒店休息时发现：哈尔滨其实并不欢迎我。

它欢迎每一位旅客，可我是故人。

（回到了故乡了……感觉好陌生啊！家里的房子有好多的灰，而且邻居在我走后，2年就搬走了，根本不知道，去了他家的院子，那颗她最喜欢的葡萄树枯萎了。）

I am always in your arms, the fire of my life is kindled by you, until some dark night, gentle wind surrounds me, omnipotent God, you quietly come to me, with patience to appease me, snuffing out my flickering candle. Your throbbing veins, your pounding heart. I took up the sand and threw it to the wind, closing my eyes to hear your commandment. I don't need to pray because you're everywhere.

我无时无刻不在你的怀抱里啊，我的生命之火被你点燃，知道某个漆黑的夜晚，温柔的狂风将我包围，无所不能的神啊，你悄声来到我的身边，极尽耐心地安抚我，熄灭我摇曳的烛火。你奔流不息的血管，沉重跳动的心脏。我捧起沙，扬在风中，闭眼听你的谕旨。我不需要祷告，因为你早已无处不在。

But I am such a despicable person, reality and dream always have to be separated, I am not the omnipotent imagination of me.

但我就是这样一个卑劣的小人，现实和梦境总要分开，我不是想象中那个无所不能的我。

My life is like a busy and numb merry-go-round, always seems to be beautiful rotation, I said that people can not get peace in this life.

我的一生就像忙碌又麻木的旋转木马，永远都看似美好的转动，我早说过人这一生都得不到安宁的。

Don't expect me to blossom, let me rot under the dirty snow.

别期待我开花，让我埋在污雪下腐烂吧。

You're such a lovely person, and you deserve to meet the cutest person, and I wish I was.

你是非常可爱的人，真应该遇到最可爱的人，我也真希望我就是。

"She's like a tropical rain forest forever in summer."

“她像永远夏天的热带雨林。”

（又找到了一个形容女孩子的词汇，夏天的热带雨林，充满活力和青春，以及十几岁的那份阳光。）

Let me die of light in such a beautiful landscape.

就让我在这样美丽的风景里死于光明。