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爱魅儿:我双重性格，我总熬夜，我会突然心情莫名的不好，我不喜欢悲伤却没有办法抑制，我对陌生人礼貌冷淡，我对朋友满嘴脏话，我喜欢你，但你千万别喜欢我，我一个人很好💔Ihaveadualcharacter,Ialwaysstayuplate,Iwillsuddenlybeinabadmood,Idon'tlikesadnessbutIcan'tstopit,Iamcoldtostrangers,Iamfullofbadtomyfriends,Ilikeyou.Butyoumustnotlikeme,Iamverygood.💔

爱魅儿我开始嗜睡每天俩三点是我最清醒的时候去脑袋也变得很迟钝别人看我的眼光语气敏感期脆弱到不喜欢和陌生人交流对于朋友家人感到内疚我该如何控制住自己的烦躁如何热爱生活成了如今最难的题目💔Istartedtosleepyeverydayatthreeo'clock.WhenIwasmostawake,Iwenttomyheadandbecameverydull.Otherslookedatme.Mytoneofvoicewassensitive.Ididn'tliketocommunicatewithstrangers.Ifeltguiltyaboutmyfriendsandfamily.HowcanIcontrolmyirritability?Lovelifehasbecomethemostdifficulttopictoday💔

爱魅儿没有人知道我笑起来嘴角会有小小的梨涡没有人知道我讨厌草莓味的一切没有人知道我下雨天从不打伞的原因我阳光活泼开朗就没人知道我在被子里哭的天昏地暗没有人陪你从开始走到最后只有自己💔NooneknowsthatIcanlaughatthecornerofmymouth.Thereisalittlepearvortex.NooneknowsthatIhatethetasteofstrawberry.NooneknowswhyIneveruseanumbrellaonarainyday.Iamlivelyandcheerful.NooneknowsthatIamcryinginthequilt.Nooneisaccompanyingyoufromthebeginningtotheend,onlyyourself.💔

爱魅儿所有人都觉得你过得很好你爱笑也爱喝酒你有很多朋友有数不清的暧昧关系你每天嘻嘻哈哈强颜欢笑但是只有你自己知道你的生活有多糟糕有多累💔Everyonethinksyouaredoingverywell.Youlovetolaughandlovetodrink.Youhavemanyfriendswhohavecountlessrelationships.Youlaughandlaugheveryday.Butonlyyouknowhowbadyourlifeis.Howtired?💔

爱魅儿从合群到自己一个人从好言到站在被恶言相对从喜欢热闹到现在喜欢安静从爱笑渐渐变成假笑我也不知道甜是什么滋味了但我是是真真切切地体会到了什么是苦.💔Fromgregarioustooneself,fromgoodwordstostanding,beingswearing,frombeinglikehilarioustobeinglikequietnow,fromlovetolaughing,graduallybecomingasmirk,Idon’tknowwhatsweetnessis,butIreallyrealizedit.Whatisbitterness.💔

爱魅儿你问有抑郁症的人生活这么美好为什么会想自杀呢这就像是你问一个有哮喘的人周围全是空气你怎么会感觉喘不上气呢💔Youaskpeoplewhohavedepression,whydoyouwanttocommitsuicidewhenyouaresobeautiful?It’slikeaskingsomeonewhohasasthma.Howcanyoufeelthatyouarenotbreathing?💔

爱魅儿我怕被丢下，所以我会特别警觉要是我发现你周围有任何人可以代替我，我一定会先走，我不要被丢下，那种人很可怜，而我，不做可怜人💔Iamafraidofbeingleftbehind,soIwillbeespeciallyalertifIfindthatanyonearoundyoucanreplaceme,Iwilldefinitelygofirst,Iwillnotbeleftbehind,thatkindofpersonisverypoor,andI,donotbepoor.💔